Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Feeling Better

Sorry, I haven't posted lately, but I've been sick for over a week. I'm finally feeling better at least. Work continues. They still want to bring Xiu into the shop when I'm working, but my illness kind of delayed things. Classes are going well. I guess I'm used to showing up in a skirt now because I'm focusing regardless of what I wear. I don't have a whole lot to report other than being sick isn't much fun.

Getting Lost in Girl? Yeah, I think it could happen. We're not transsexuals. We're also not guys putting on a dress for Halloween and that's the end of it. Living 24/7 as a woman is tough for women, even tougher for us. There are times when being a guy, even if I'm wearing panties, hose, and a bra is nice. Some people obsess over gender, but it isn't that huge. It's easier to say that this year when I have Colleen around, but we all eat, sleep, talk with friends, work, study, want to be loved--male or female.

Am I a Girl in the Bedroom? Yes, sometimes. It changes depending on mood. I'm not going to write too much about it for fear of torturing Jill, but I've been male and extremely female in my relationship with Colleen.


  1. I'm glad you're feeling better and getting back to your blog.

    Wow, a great picture of a beautiful woman. You're so feminine in that dress that you make me jealous.

    Don't ever go back to being a guy...borrring.

  2. Thank you Cindy, for this very interesting and deeply personal post.

    It seems to me as though you are finding your way more easily to the things that are important, unique, and beautiful about yourself beneath how you appear.

    These things shine out, whether one is wearing a gorgeous ball gown (mad jealous my dear of this picture), or jeans and a ball cap.

    I think as well that the people who are important in your life will see that beauty, your personal and abundant beauty the same way.

    Take it easy, get well, ace your exams, and please write more posts like this one.

    Sincerely yours, Graciella

  3. when you said that you have been both male and extremely female in your relationship with Colleen, I hope that means she has used dildos or strapon sex toys with you hun. A good prostate massage by getting fucked feels wonderful...


  4. I haven't commented in a while, because the girls have been doing such a wonderful job with you sissies. There are so many of us enjoying your progress, and we don't want to get in the way of your kind mentors. Keep up the good work!


  5. You are so mature. Your attitude about gender is wonderful. Whatever the future brings you, I think that you will look back on this episode in your life fondly.

    Your comment on discussing your sex life as potentially torturing Jill was a little disturbing. Do you feel a flame of attraction for each other? I wish that Colleen and Kristine would let you two explore your feelings for each other a little more.

    What could solidify your sissiness more than a lesbian relationship with another sissy?

  6. You know what, Cindy? I think what you've written in this post shows how much human insight you are gaining from this experience.

    As for your relationship with Ms Colleen: I love reading about the "public" things you three do with your girlfriend mistresses. For instance: Do you and Ms Coleen ever go out as boy and girl, or is it always as two girls? But I strongly support your keeping the intimate details of your relationship private, and wish you both the best as you work it out.

    Wishing you well,


  7. Any pictures of your school clothes? Just curious how you go to class.

  8. Interesting tidbit at the end of your post. I don't want to read too much into it. It sounds like Colleen pegged you as someone who would be receptive to her dictating the direction of your relationship.