Where We've Been

Things have been heating up for Summer. So far Jill hasn't had much luck finding Summer employment that meets the girls' specifications and we had a hard time finding an apartment. We have found a two bedroom with rent at only $600 a month, which isn't bad for the two of us. We have painted, moved, and dealt with all that. Although we signed for our apartment under our male names, the plan is to live together completely as women once classes end. Our lease technically starts May 1st, but we've already done most of the work.

Spring Break

Spring Break was certainly not what I had planned. Not long after I started having to dress, I was instructed to call my parents and let them know that I'd be spending my break at a friend's house. That friend was Jill. Now, I'm normally very nervous meeting a friend's parents, but I was petrified doing so knowing I had on a bra, panties, a camisole, and pantyhose with painted toe nails and a suitcase full of lingerie, makeup, and even some female outerwear.

I spent the week as Jill's sister's project and if anything she was tougher than the girls at school. I'd be up shortly after Jill's parents left for work every day, so that I could serve breakfast in bed. The mornings usually consisted of chores while the afternoons consisted of shopping. I have not been out much in public and at least I got to go out where most people don't know me, but there's a big difference between looking cute in a picture and passing when you speak and move. I've been told that I need to start focusing more one learning how to act and move. I don't see much choice if I'm going to constantly be out in public.

It's Not As Easy As You Think

I know how hard my current situation is for you all to understand, but if you're one of the people who keeps saying, if you wanted to, you could get out of this please think for a second. Usually, right after telling me that if I stood up to the girls, I could get out if it without any trouble, they'll tell me they don't think I want to get out. That is exactly the attitude that my friends will have. That's exactly what I'm nervous about. My friends, family, and people at school will always be wondering if I wanted to do this.

The girls responsible for feminizing me are all very attractive, but they're also extremely cunning. They have so much to blackmail me with now. Some people have even told Jill and I that 4 girls can't overpower one guy. Even when the guys in question aren't that big. That's a picture of Heather. She's now a blackbelt in judo. She doesn't use physical force on me or anything, but it sure we no trouble for the girls to get me tied up or to control most any situation. Now, don't get me wrong they don't physically threaten me or anything, but that's just another thing that makes escape hard.

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Tonight Will Be Humiliating

I really am still not so sure if I made a good deal by going so far with the girls in exchange for not having my friends shown pictures of me. I asked Jill about it and she told me, it isn't a question of whether your humiliated or not. If you have any male pride, you are going to be very humiliated. What you need to ask yourself is do you want to be humiliated in front of these girls and some of their friends or do you want to be humiliated in front of your own friends.

Jill and I took off from class today to get manicures and pedicures. Jill even had some work done on her hair and we had our eyebrows neatened as well. It was a major embarrassment even if Jill had been there before and had at least something of a rapport with the stylist. The girl who took care of me was only 18 and couldn't have been sweeter. I actually felt kind of bad and gave her a big tip, but I just felt so embarrassed as I saw that brush go into the polish and come out dripping red and watched my fingers one by one receive the treatment.

Jill and I then spent all afternoon working on looking our best. Scented bubble baths, painstaking making application, you name it. Now we'll be heading out to set up the party. I have received instruction on how to curtsy and say "Yes Sir" and "Yes Ma'am". I can't think of anything more humiliating then doing this party and trying to act so feminine. I just keep thinking these girls have shown absolutely no tolerance for piggish behavior. Their friends can't be too bad...I hope.

My New Blog with Jill

I wanted to give a plug for my new blog Sex and the Sissy which I will be doing with my girlfriend Jill. The blog will be flirtier and lighter than either of our individual blogs and we'll be writing about the things that interest us most like guys and shoes and parties. We'll also have sissy advice and it'll be a great place to ask us both a question at the same time. I'm currently working on an article that should be up soon:

Sex and the Sissy

I have a few questions to answer from the blog:

"are you saying that the feeling of your skirt brushing against your stocking-clad legs does not give you a frisson of sexual excitement? I would be most surprised if it did not...Please let me know. You have lovely, shapely legs by the way." -- Sissy Isobel

I do know what you mean, but they are such a bother and so uncomfortable sometimes. If I was sexually excited by wearing pantyhose, I'd be walking around aroused 24/7. Thank you for the compliment on my legs.

"is that your real hair cindy? its soooooooo girly? i'm surprised you can ever pass as a guy?"--Mandy

I did not have real long hair when this thing started. Maybe a bit long for a guy, but certainly not feminine length. I have several very high quality wigs that I wear. The girls keep telling Jill and I that over Summer, we can go together once a week for new hairstyles, but I don't really have enough hair yet. Jill does have passively feminine hair without a wig now, but wears one for more exciting styles.

"Cindy, congratulations on looking so cute, you have come a long way in such a short time. Could you please expand on two of the comments you make?
1)....is pantyhose going to matter that much or do you face the consequences?
2) I have resisted at times, but they're always prepared for it.
What are the consequences you mention and how are the girls prepared?
On a related note, if your at college do you have a room mate (if so what's their take on things) or are you lucky enough to have a place of your own?
On the bright side, you do look cute in your new clothes and at least you have great girl friends.
:-)"--anonymous

1. It does matter, but I can't win so they go on in the morning.
2. The biggest threat is public exposure and they have more than enough. They can completely embarrass and humiliate me if they so choose, but there are also enough of them to simply overpower me. Both Jill and I have been threated with being tied up to a statue in the middle of campus in just our lingerie and heels.
3. I am lucky enough to live on my own, but it is still difficult to be undetected. In some ways, the summer apartment with Jill sounds like it would simplify my life a great deal.

Sorry I Got Behind

I'm sorry that I haven't updated in awhile, but I got hopelessly behind on some of the questions and this weekend was rather busy. I know that you heard about my makeup misadventures which are most notable because I could have gone out with my friends instead. I also had a major shopping trip in my week and I'm starting to see my closet fill up with dresses, tops, and skirts the same way that my underwear drawer filled up with bras, panties, and hose. I've heard a few people say that I must love this or I would have stopped it, but it all happens so fast. You're already wearing panties, is pantyhose going to matter that much or do you face the consequences? What difference will adding a bra make? It beats the alternative. The next thing you know, you're completely and unmistakably feminine. I don't claim to have had no choice in the matter whatsoever as much as the alternative has usually been much more attractive then resisting. I have resisted at times, but they're always prepared for it.